Welp, I still feel like shit so that’s nice. Everything just feels like it’s cracking and crumbling.
At school, I don’t really have friends. I have two that are actually friends while basically the rest of the people I hang out with are toxic messes. Then there’s my teachers who I don’t connect with at all. My mom says it’s because I come off as an independent person, but I think it’s because I’m not noticeable. I’m kinda in the middle for my grades, I don’t speak out in class unless I’m called on, and I rarely have questions or ask for help. It seems everyone around me has a close relationship with a teacher as a mentor or someone they can talk to besides their parents or something. What am I even doing there if I don’t have good interactions with others?
I feel like the only person that hears me is my mom and even that is rare because I don’t want to seem like a burden to others. All I want is to have reliable friends and to be close to a teacher so I feel safer at school.
Instead I just feel like nothing. Like I don’t even matter.